RocketDaemon
10-12-2003, 02:08 PM
first of all i wanna thank everyone who gave me support, reply here aswell as email and thought...
it really helped all that you wrote to me,
some of the stuff you guys told me really got me to think and help speed up the process alot.. i felt so alone for a moment there, i was really devestated, i even had a couple of panic attacks, was really scary,
i really appricate that people told me about simular situations..
i was really down for a couple of days, but today i decided to let it all go before it got me even further...
, the girl will never be back, i dont want her now anymore, it still hurts of course
but... i gave her so much and she didnt want that no more, what can i do she didnt appricate what i gave and went back to her alcoholic ex boyfriend.. to compare that of what i see myself, well i mean heck its like someone prefers to eat shit instead of a nice pizza... it just started to feel ironic the whole situation, eventhough i gave so much more then anyone could ask for, i really wanted to stay true to all my vows and words, i did my part she didnt even try hard enough, anyhow.. still selling some cars are on the plans..
i really thought i was on being counted out for good for a short while,
i realised im not a person that gets down and dont rise again.
in a sence im glad it happend now instead of later on within a marriage or something, obviously that girl had some issues i never noticed before, it more seems like she chose him out of the idea that she knows she cant trust him and have any real hopes for the future, and there for cant be disapointed as she would be with me as she could count on me 100%.. and if i would ever let her down it would hurt more because she would be in a constant safe situation, and with him it will always be chaos..
anyhow i just wanna get that girl behind me and look forward.. now... my daughter and the cars will get my priority...
i know i will dare to love again, i thought this was the big love of my life, i learned alot of things from this, just obviously the wrong girl i met...
i just want this out of my head, it is getting out, heck i belive i wont even feel bitter about this.. she can't get into my head anymore, i locked the door to her for ever. she played her cards.. she is out of the picture, heck why should i even let myself to be out of the picture noway..
life is to short to let someone that hurt you ruin the rest of it...
boy do i feel this huge inspiration on fixing up one of the cars and in the summer maybe pick up some hot chicks with it http://www.jalopyjournal.com/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif hihiihhihi
thanx once more, you guys sure showed me how great the hamb is.. i sure feel like i am part of something big, i hope i can return the favor and posting some fun and intresting stuff more often, to begin with i will try to post more progress pics on some of my cars on the way to the summer..
love
daemon
it really helped all that you wrote to me,
some of the stuff you guys told me really got me to think and help speed up the process alot.. i felt so alone for a moment there, i was really devestated, i even had a couple of panic attacks, was really scary,
i really appricate that people told me about simular situations..
i was really down for a couple of days, but today i decided to let it all go before it got me even further...
, the girl will never be back, i dont want her now anymore, it still hurts of course
but... i gave her so much and she didnt want that no more, what can i do she didnt appricate what i gave and went back to her alcoholic ex boyfriend.. to compare that of what i see myself, well i mean heck its like someone prefers to eat shit instead of a nice pizza... it just started to feel ironic the whole situation, eventhough i gave so much more then anyone could ask for, i really wanted to stay true to all my vows and words, i did my part she didnt even try hard enough, anyhow.. still selling some cars are on the plans..
i really thought i was on being counted out for good for a short while,
i realised im not a person that gets down and dont rise again.
in a sence im glad it happend now instead of later on within a marriage or something, obviously that girl had some issues i never noticed before, it more seems like she chose him out of the idea that she knows she cant trust him and have any real hopes for the future, and there for cant be disapointed as she would be with me as she could count on me 100%.. and if i would ever let her down it would hurt more because she would be in a constant safe situation, and with him it will always be chaos..
anyhow i just wanna get that girl behind me and look forward.. now... my daughter and the cars will get my priority...
i know i will dare to love again, i thought this was the big love of my life, i learned alot of things from this, just obviously the wrong girl i met...
i just want this out of my head, it is getting out, heck i belive i wont even feel bitter about this.. she can't get into my head anymore, i locked the door to her for ever. she played her cards.. she is out of the picture, heck why should i even let myself to be out of the picture noway..
life is to short to let someone that hurt you ruin the rest of it...
boy do i feel this huge inspiration on fixing up one of the cars and in the summer maybe pick up some hot chicks with it http://www.jalopyjournal.com/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif hihiihhihi
thanx once more, you guys sure showed me how great the hamb is.. i sure feel like i am part of something big, i hope i can return the favor and posting some fun and intresting stuff more often, to begin with i will try to post more progress pics on some of my cars on the way to the summer..
love
daemon